I regret loving you too much
as much as I can regret
not loving you enough.
I wish I was stronger
enough to not hold on to you.
I wish I had held you
firmly (but gently)
enough for you to stay.
And I'm sorry for running away.
I'm sorry for not running to you.
So many things I did wrong.
So much you didn't do it right.
The things I said did matter,
but the ones I didn't say
could have made
all the difference.
I feel ashamed.
I feel guilty.
I feel lonely.
And most certainly:
I feel for you.
Thus I repent.